A friend asks how you have been since it ended. You give a clear account: the timing, what each of you was avoiding, why it could not have gone another way. All of it is accurate. Your friend says okay, but how are you? and you begin the account again. I do all of it in my head.
Thinking things through is useful, and for many people it is how a hard thing gets understood.
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What it looks like
You explain where another person might just say it hurts.
You have a theory of your own behavior and can lay it out calmly. You read about what you are going through. In a hard conversation you move to the general case: what people tend to do, what the research says.
You are often the one friends come to for a clear view of their situation.
When someone asks what you feel, you tell them what you think.
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What it protects
Whatever is under it, the analysis may keep one thing from happening: saying a plain feeling out loud, with no explanation attached.
Why that would be a problem is not something the analysis reveals, however good it is.
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The rules it can serve, and what is under each
"Being wrong isn't a mistake. It feels like a verdict."
An analysis can be correct, and a raw feeling can be mistaken, unfair, or out of proportion. Staying with the analysis may be a way of staying on ground where you can be right. Under it, the fear may be that if you are wrong about this, what else are you wrong about.
Read about Right →"Strong is the only version of me they know."
An explanation is composed, and a feeling may not be. Staying with the explanation may be a way of never being seen shaken. Under it, the fear may be that if they see you struggle, you lose the only standing you have. Things happened that hurt. I just don't let myself feel it.
Read about Strong →Other rules can be under this, and for many people none is.
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What it buys and what it costs
It buys clarity. You do understand a great deal, and the understanding is real.
For you, the cost may be that understanding and relief turn out to be different things. You can know exactly why something hurts and be no less hurt. For the people close to you, it may mean getting a report where they hoped for you.
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How to tell which rule is under it
Which is harder to have people see: that you got it wrong, or that you're struggling?
Got it wrong is the Right answer. Struggling is the Strong answer.
If neither is hard, or you can't tell, there is not enough to go on. That is a result.
One thing is not this strategy. Some people think first and feel fine, and nothing is being held off. For Strong, what to look at is cost, and whether keeping it in your head is costing you support you need.
That one question is subtraction at its smallest: two explanations, and a way to drop one.
What it is like when the feeling does not come at all is on I Feel Nothing When I Should Feel Something.